Kianti` Ayshea`

The reality is you can want to do something all you like, however, if you are not willing to apply any action behind your plan it is just an idea until otherwise executed. This does not mean only on those days you feel up to it or when you feel you have all you need. This is all the time, and trust me when you are living the life destined for you all of your resources will be supplied. There are a few things you will have to wiggle your way through, but that is expected or at least it should be. Similar to anything else you could have that would be worth having obstacles will appear along the way and you will hop over them like you do any other time you truly desire something. When your heart is involved you will go to all lengths and if you are not doing just that, it is time to invest into a new goal. Don't take this the wrong way, if anything, use it to spark your imagination. Allow your mind the freedom to escape and wander around even if only for a little while. Allow yourse...

Every now and again I like to go into a private little bubble to escape the world outside of said bubble. Inside of my bubble is my son, my love, the entire inside of our home, sometimes it may even include the outside. In this bubble, there is music, food, my computer, pen and paper and of course my tarot and oracle cards. My phone is there as a resource just in case there is a form of contact needed to be made with the world or anyone in it. Most of the time though, I prefer to be inside my bubble. Over the last 7 months, it has become my sacred haven if you will. In my bubble, there is no confusion, no heartache or unnecessary drama. There is no one making an imaginary competition, there is no made up bad blood or beef there is only the beef that I put on top of my man's nachos.  I am able to think clearly without the intrusion of anyone else's opinions or hurt feelings. I am able to just be for a moment and lay for a moment and smile for a while. Inside of my bubble I ...

I have been trying to do some research on something for about a few days now. None of the articles that I am coming across pertain to the direct situation and that is unusual. Most of the time, I am able to find at least one thesis on what it is I am experiencing or someone who would have experienced similar things to what I was aiming to describe. I did find one that resonated a smidge by referring closely to the subject but not being nearly the topic. What I began to notice was a pattern. All of the articles were written by people who do not look like me or more than likely would never steam from the same tree as me so it made sense. Of course, they wouldn't be able to relate they just like everyone to believe they do. Maybe I even for a second believed they did but I am just in an entirely different realm right now, where it is gray and there is no veil. I am no longer allowed to deny or run from what I can not run away from or deny. There are so many people who ...

Allowing you to love me and being open and receptive to all of the love that you give has been one of my favorite decisions. Of course, due to loving you and the person that you are I want it to be the best decision I make for the rest of my life and that is where yet more limiting beliefs come into play. Throughout the course of our relationship, it has been extremely difficult to get it through my head that you genuinely wanted this and genuinely respected and cared for me. Doing something that could interfere with my happiness is the complete opposite of where your head is. You have shown me over this last year what it means to be in love with someone. What many tend to forget is that loving someone and being in love with someone (meaning they're an active participant) is two different things. I have thought I was in love with someone before, I thought I had all of this "experience" but I know now that I have loved others that didn't necessarily love me back they ...

There is conflict within and you allow yourself to face your demons. You understand that in order to move forward you must deal with the things that you tried to ignore. The burdens are yours to carry and no one else's. How does it feel to know that the person you may have attempted to make yourself out to be is not who you truly are? The shadow in which we avoid day to day, year to year makes itself present. You will eventually have no choice but to sort things out and go back to square one. Take the necessary time to reorganize and restructure where need be.  I came across a photo the other day that basically represented the shadow of oneself. If you choose to move forward on a day to day basis as if those things and that side of you don't exist it will just be right behind you. On the other hand, if you turn around and face that baggage head on you will eventually work through sorting things out in your life and making amends with your karma. All of the decisions you h...