Kianti` Ayshea`

When you care too much about what people think of you it becomes impossible to enjoy life. How can you when you are worried about who's standards you aren't meeting? I had that issue for about 24 out of 25 years of my lifespan. Hopefully, it is a habit that has been permanently broken. While trying to satisfy everyone else I noticed I was not happy and my energy was not reciprocated which absolutely made things worst. I would often cry myself to sleep wondering when it would get better. It took what seemed to be ages, but it came. Now that those times have come and gone,  I would like to remain worry free. Something that is clearly easier said than done because if you allow people to get a taste of your energy they will in more ways than one try to devour it. You, unfortunately, have to keep your guard up. Even in a spiritual sense. It would be so ideal to be able to trust everyone because of choosing to see the good in everyone, but sadly that is just not the case. Everyt...

The most difficult yet fulfilling job I have ever had is that of being a mother. Over time I have grown to realize that no matter how great of a mother I may be at times I feel as if I can do more. Instead of allowing the feeling to completely take over and lead me directly to a crash and burn I transmute the negative energy into positive and push my way through it by any means necessary. That's just the thing though. A mother will always find a way to do whatever needs to be done for her children. Sacrifices are inclusive in this package. The joy expressed through your child while learning life makes it all worthwhile. I notice that everyone initially has intentions on "being prepared" for the experience, but what does that truly mean? Does that mean you and someone else made an agreement that you were both in a stable enough place in all areas of life to start a family? If so, what does that mean? Apparently, we are all different so the answer to these questions ca...

You are the only person who will be able to tell you what decisions to make or how you live your life because you will be the one to deal with the outcome of those decisions. A year ago I decided that what  I wanted to begin doing was pursuing my purpose. All of my life I have felt as if my creative side would be what led me to where I needed to be. However, over the years people make you feel like your dreams and goals are nonrealistic. Due to that, you doubt yourself even more than you more than likely already were. You have all been programmed to believe that the only way a person can truly be happy is if they do as they have been taught to do. Go to school for the majority of their life, over and over again learning about the same or similar things in different ways. Keeping them in debt for years after their 60's s they are unable to retire or relax at all as formerly promised. Our souls are little by little being sucked away from our bodies in more ways than we apparently car...