Kianti` Ayshea`

About a month ago, I had a dream that I was standing in front of my car in complete darkness. The only things visible were me and the car. So I am standing at the front right corner of my car raising this thick black antenna and there is this really loud voice saying " Make sure you always keep this raised. " So I am steadily raising it up until I couldn't go any higher than the tips of my toes, which I was already on, and the antenna shoots up through the darkness, into the sky, beyond where I could see. At the time, I was able to look at myself in the dream while dreaming, formally known as "Lucid Dreaming" . Typically, I would wake up the next morning, or after the dream, and spend hours, days or weeks raking my brain to interpret the dream. What was different this time is, I didn't have to. I woke up already having had the answer. I need to in a literal sense "Make sure my antenna is always up and in working condition." My intuition has been at...

Just when we get to thinking we have mastered stepping outside of our comfort zones, we are smacked with the reality that we are uncomfortable with many things. That being said, we remember that we will have to do so many times over. Each and every day we are presented with new challenges and we have the advantage of having overcome things we found difficult in the past. An Undying Attitude of Gratitude, A Positive and Focused Mindset, and The Desire to Succeed will undoubtedly take us far. All we have to do is allow it.

Stand firm in your femininity. There is absolutely nothing wrong with the way women are constructed. We represent life, love, and light. Why would you want to be anything else? These days I see entirely too many women bashing each other both figuratively and literally over nothing. Okay, she has something you don't. You have something she doesn't as well. Both of those things are the same. Both of you are different and come from your very own sector of light and love. With your very own special attributes and characteristics. I know I haven't been living the longest, but I have never met two women that are exactly the same. Sometimes we may have things in common with another, but when it comes down to the core and the foundation, we all differ from one another. Let's take a moment to go back in time when women didn't have the "rights" and "freedom" that we have now. (These things are in quotations for a reason, but that's for another time....

This week like any other, I have paid attention to the many signs that I have been given. Unlike any other week, I have been seeing it more rapidly. I have been in every sense doing what people call "seeing the future" whether it is an event that will occur to me or others. I was even placed in the same place as someone I haven't spoken to or heard from in a while and didn't even recognize they were there. If I hadn't heard it from someone else the day after, I wouldn't have even known. One would read that and think "that means you weren't aware of your surroundings", which I will then say that it simply means that person and their toxic energy are no longer apart of my surroundings. I took that with a grain of salt for exactly what it was, energy ties have been cut. Something I was down about, and honestly for a little bit altered my mood, now, has no effect on me. A blessing! I have been working so hard to rid energies that no longer serve my...

Feeling the energy of things, places and people you are around is not the easiest or most favorable thing one can deal with. I have known this for a while now, yes, but it doesn't seem to get less difficult. No matter the amount of passing "time". Multitasking is a skill that not many people have, confidence is not as common as it should be. Therefore, when a person carries themselves a certain way, others tend to for one odd reason or another feel intimidated. Automatically making it uncomfortable for you to be around them. Energy Vampires are a VERY real thing, let's start with that. These Vamps are everywhere too. Grocery stores, school, your family, outside by your neighborhood poppy store, WORK. (lol) I capitalized that for personal reasons; The reason we are here today. Me writing and you reading this. For the last four or five months, I was working remotely due to the inflexibility of my overall schedule. However, that should not at all matter. Neither should...

Lightworkers everywhere are all experiencing the same if not similar things; as usual, yes, but this time not so usual. There has been a HUGE shift in the atmosphere and what is interesting is that it has been in a way a RESET button. OR SHOULD I SAY THAT IS THE INTENTION? Everyone has their opinion on the subject and that is what I feel and have conversated about with some other Lightworkers I know. The thing is that a lot of people really believe in coincidences and things just happening, but what I have come to learn is that nothing at all in this life "just happens", everything is with purpose. Often times when we are at the moment we do not realize what they may be occurring for or because of but there are such things known as universal laws which is pretty much the concept that what you put out into the world or universe is what you will get delivered back to you. When things happen such as loads of destruction one is utterly forced to come up with solutions in ord...

Life can truly be disappointing if you allow it to be and that is coming from the "living in the flesh" point of view which is exactly my point. Whenever there is another breakthrough my fingers get to moving, so here we are. Always expect the best from yourself, however, put no one on a pedestal. Meaning Do not allow anyone to take priority over you. If you are not okay at the end of the day you can not assist anyone else, as we know. Do not confuse this with changing your heart, always allow that to remain in tact as it is. Love freely, without remorse yet have boundaries that you respect. If you do not respect yourself, no one else will either. These things are what we have been hearing our entire lives, but we have also been hearing contradictory things as well. Such as "be loyal", "blood is thicker than water" and plenty more things, however, we know that we can be loyal and not have that same energy and consistency returned. We also know that sometim...

One of the most difficult challenges as a lot of you know has been being unconditionally in love with myself. Although it has not at all been an easy road, I remain persistent as I recognize that is the only way I will ever truly accomplish said goal. No matter how many things life has thrown at me over the years I remain strong and focused on where it is I want to be. Even when I was not one hundred percent sure where that was, I knew it was anywhere but down the road I was at one point headed. Releasing my very first self published book on my twenty fifth birthday was not only an amazing birthday gift to myself, it was a gift to my grandmother who has passed on and every elder who has come before her. It was for my son and everyone who will come after him. I want everyone all across the nation and even beyond, the world, to know they can be, do or have anything they want! Many years it was said that I would never find love, happiness or success and hearing that mentally, emotionall...

The signs are everywhere and how sweet it is when we follow the instinct to notice them. I adore those moments. I enjoy knowing that my angels are all around me wishing me well and guiding me along as they are within flowing through my veins with every move and decision I make I am reminded of this. I am pleased to know that I am following along the path set out before me for my better interest. Things are for certain not always easy, however, when I allow myself to follow the guidance in remembrance of those who came before and live within me, I am aligned with my greater spirit. The lesson is only that if you actually learn from the experience. During this and any lifetime, we will have many, however, if we do not gain and apply the wisdom bestowed it will be for not. I will not settle, I refuse to, as I am fully aware of all of the woman, all of the queen, all of the goddess that I am. I am unstoppable as there is no obstacle that will defeat me. I am so much more than a co...

The reality is you can want to do something all you like, however, if you are not willing to apply any action behind your plan it is just an idea until otherwise executed. This does not mean only on those days you feel up to it or when you feel you have all you need. This is all the time, and trust me when you are living the life destined for you all of your resources will be supplied. There are a few things you will have to wiggle your way through, but that is expected or at least it should be. Similar to anything else you could have that would be worth having obstacles will appear along the way and you will hop over them like you do any other time you truly desire something. When your heart is involved you will go to all lengths and if you are not doing just that, it is time to invest into a new goal. Don't take this the wrong way, if anything, use it to spark your imagination. Allow your mind the freedom to escape and wander around even if only for a little while. Allow yourse...

Every now and again I like to go into a private little bubble to escape the world outside of said bubble. Inside of my bubble is my son, my love, the entire inside of our home, sometimes it may even include the outside. In this bubble, there is music, food, my computer, pen and paper and of course my tarot and oracle cards. My phone is there as a resource just in case there is a form of contact needed to be made with the world or anyone in it. Most of the time though, I prefer to be inside my bubble. Over the last 7 months, it has become my sacred haven if you will. In my bubble, there is no confusion, no heartache or unnecessary drama. There is no one making an imaginary competition, there is no made up bad blood or beef there is only the beef that I put on top of my man's nachos.  I am able to think clearly without the intrusion of anyone else's opinions or hurt feelings. I am able to just be for a moment and lay for a moment and smile for a while. Inside of my bubble I ...

I have been trying to do some research on something for about a few days now. None of the articles that I am coming across pertain to the direct situation and that is unusual. Most of the time, I am able to find at least one thesis on what it is I am experiencing or someone who would have experienced similar things to what I was aiming to describe. I did find one that resonated a smidge by referring closely to the subject but not being nearly the topic. What I began to notice was a pattern. All of the articles were written by people who do not look like me or more than likely would never steam from the same tree as me so it made sense. Of course, they wouldn't be able to relate they just like everyone to believe they do. Maybe I even for a second believed they did but I am just in an entirely different realm right now, where it is gray and there is no veil. I am no longer allowed to deny or run from what I can not run away from or deny. There are so many people who ...

Allowing you to love me and being open and receptive to all of the love that you give has been one of my favorite decisions. Of course, due to loving you and the person that you are I want it to be the best decision I make for the rest of my life and that is where yet more limiting beliefs come into play. Throughout the course of our relationship, it has been extremely difficult to get it through my head that you genuinely wanted this and genuinely respected and cared for me. Doing something that could interfere with my happiness is the complete opposite of where your head is. You have shown me over this last year what it means to be in love with someone. What many tend to forget is that loving someone and being in love with someone (meaning they're an active participant) is two different things. I have thought I was in love with someone before, I thought I had all of this "experience" but I know now that I have loved others that didn't necessarily love me back they ...

There is conflict within and you allow yourself to face your demons. You understand that in order to move forward you must deal with the things that you tried to ignore. The burdens are yours to carry and no one else's. How does it feel to know that the person you may have attempted to make yourself out to be is not who you truly are? The shadow in which we avoid day to day, year to year makes itself present. You will eventually have no choice but to sort things out and go back to square one. Take the necessary time to reorganize and restructure where need be.  I came across a photo the other day that basically represented the shadow of oneself. If you choose to move forward on a day to day basis as if those things and that side of you don't exist it will just be right behind you. On the other hand, if you turn around and face that baggage head on you will eventually work through sorting things out in your life and making amends with your karma. All of the decisions you h...

When you care too much about what people think of you it becomes impossible to enjoy life. How can you when you are worried about who's standards you aren't meeting? I had that issue for about 24 out of 25 years of my lifespan. Hopefully, it is a habit that has been permanently broken. While trying to satisfy everyone else I noticed I was not happy and my energy was not reciprocated which absolutely made things worst. I would often cry myself to sleep wondering when it would get better. It took what seemed to be ages, but it came. Now that those times have come and gone,  I would like to remain worry free. Something that is clearly easier said than done because if you allow people to get a taste of your energy they will in more ways than one try to devour it. You, unfortunately, have to keep your guard up. Even in a spiritual sense. It would be so ideal to be able to trust everyone because of choosing to see the good in everyone, but sadly that is just not the case. Everyt...

The most difficult yet fulfilling job I have ever had is that of being a mother. Over time I have grown to realize that no matter how great of a mother I may be at times I feel as if I can do more. Instead of allowing the feeling to completely take over and lead me directly to a crash and burn I transmute the negative energy into positive and push my way through it by any means necessary. That's just the thing though. A mother will always find a way to do whatever needs to be done for her children. Sacrifices are inclusive in this package. The joy expressed through your child while learning life makes it all worthwhile. I notice that everyone initially has intentions on "being prepared" for the experience, but what does that truly mean? Does that mean you and someone else made an agreement that you were both in a stable enough place in all areas of life to start a family? If so, what does that mean? Apparently, we are all different so the answer to these questions ca...

You are the only person who will be able to tell you what decisions to make or how you live your life because you will be the one to deal with the outcome of those decisions. A year ago I decided that what  I wanted to begin doing was pursuing my purpose. All of my life I have felt as if my creative side would be what led me to where I needed to be. However, over the years people make you feel like your dreams and goals are nonrealistic. Due to that, you doubt yourself even more than you more than likely already were. You have all been programmed to believe that the only way a person can truly be happy is if they do as they have been taught to do. Go to school for the majority of their life, over and over again learning about the same or similar things in different ways. Keeping them in debt for years after their 60's s they are unable to retire or relax at all as formerly promised. Our souls are little by little being sucked away from our bodies in more ways than we apparently car...