The Heart of Tx
One of the most difficult challenges as a lot of you know has been being unconditionally in love with myself. Although it has not at all been an easy road, I remain persistent as I recognize that is the only way I will ever truly accomplish said goal. No matter how many things life has thrown at me over the years I remain strong and focused on where it is I want to be. Even when I was not one hundred percent sure where that was, I knew it was anywhere but down the road I was at one point headed. Releasing my very first self published book on my twenty fifth birthday was not only an amazing birthday gift to myself, it was a gift to my grandmother who has passed on and every elder who has come before her. It was for my son and everyone who will come after him. I want everyone all across the nation and even beyond, the world, to know they can be, do or have anything they want!
Many years it was said that I would never find love, happiness or success and hearing that mentally, emotionally and spiritually paralyzed me. I was left to feel as if someone had cursed my life forever, which also made the apparent pattern within my family make so much sense. Of course, me being the woman I am, that did nothing but inspire me beyond anyone's wildest dreams. As children we always watch movies or read books that reference "the chosen one", meaning the one who was selected by a higher up/authority/the higher power to complete a task of significance. For lack of better verbiage right now, that's me. It is my duty to restore healed hearts and love within my family as well as others. Yes, it sounds scary I know, and at first it truly was. That is until I realized this is what I have been praying for, for years. When the heavens hand you a blessing you dare not decline.
When I began my journey to self discovery, worth and love I had absolutely no idea exactly how far it would take me, and maybe the distance doesn't seem that grand to someone who doesn't know the mileage or the effort given to keep the engine running, but to me it is EVERYTHING. The title stems from my current vacation. As I sit here, fingers stroking this keyboard I remember what I was doing a year ago. Sitting in my room with writers block, researching the universal laws and learning the basics of meditation and making it apart of my every day routine. While doing research I came across something I am all too fond of as I am now a part of it; a twin flame partnership. Remember when I mentioned being on a journey to self love? Well, along with learning to love yourself unconditionally, you learn how to give love selflessly. During my younger years (yes, 25 is still young) I looked for love in boys who didn't even know how to love themselves and girls who did not know how to be their own friend let alone anyone else's. After years and tears of pain despite always believing a counterpart for me was out there, I was unable to cry anymore. I was becoming accustomed to receiving less, that is when I knew it was time for a change.
I looked into different healing crystals that would be able to assist with the things I struggled with. I came across "ROSIE" my huge beautiful rose quartz. I wore it around my neck for days, meditating on love for self and others in an unconditional, no expectations required manner. A few weeks after the beginning of this process, I reconnected with a childhood friend who I recognized immediately as MY TWIN FLAME. As we began our journey, I noticed all of the many synchronized happenings. Dates, names, interests, numerology, random totems etc. Speaking of - my partner unfortunately lost his mom at a young age so things that normal girlfriends may get the opportunity to do - I felt I couldn't have so I could only imagine how he felt. One day he showed me a picture of his mom and I would have liked to lose my mind. A few days before reconnecting with him this woman was in a dream of mine. I knew that I was the spiritually mature twin, so I had no idea how I would explain it to him. Fortunately, it wasn't as difficult as I imagined it would have been. He did not doubt me as he also has certain intuitive abilities within him (why was I surprised? your twin flame is your mirror - literally) which couldn't have pleased me any more. I was able to share all of my hearts desires with him effortlessly, still do.
My birthday came not too long after the reconnect which is when I had the PERFECT idea for his day. DING - Vacay to Texas to see his twin (another piece of him) who he hadn't seen in 4 or 5 years - YIKES!!! It was supposed to be a surprise but I couldn't keep a secret from him, it felt wrong. WELL HERE WE ARE A YEAR LATER, in TEXAS visiting his twin and having the time of our lives! I may not have been able to meet his mom physically, but I appreciate her trusting me to do the job and the signs I have been receiving the whole time letting me know it is a job well done. Including all of the outdated programming done to my heart over the years from false loves and "fauxships" (Kianti` Ayshea` Original word) purging from my soul.
In EVERY way I have manifested everything I have from before I had my first book, up to now with my second book published June 2017 and another published for a client of mine in May 2017. The apartment I live in, the car I drive, the relationship and bond I am building with my soul's mirror. I can honestly say that I can see our and anyone involved future being extremely bright. Similar to the big CITRINE quartz in his grandfather's living room! Yea - it's that real !!!!
Ascending and Aligning
Many years it was said that I would never find love, happiness or success and hearing that mentally, emotionally and spiritually paralyzed me. I was left to feel as if someone had cursed my life forever, which also made the apparent pattern within my family make so much sense. Of course, me being the woman I am, that did nothing but inspire me beyond anyone's wildest dreams. As children we always watch movies or read books that reference "the chosen one", meaning the one who was selected by a higher up/authority/the higher power to complete a task of significance. For lack of better verbiage right now, that's me. It is my duty to restore healed hearts and love within my family as well as others. Yes, it sounds scary I know, and at first it truly was. That is until I realized this is what I have been praying for, for years. When the heavens hand you a blessing you dare not decline.
When I began my journey to self discovery, worth and love I had absolutely no idea exactly how far it would take me, and maybe the distance doesn't seem that grand to someone who doesn't know the mileage or the effort given to keep the engine running, but to me it is EVERYTHING. The title stems from my current vacation. As I sit here, fingers stroking this keyboard I remember what I was doing a year ago. Sitting in my room with writers block, researching the universal laws and learning the basics of meditation and making it apart of my every day routine. While doing research I came across something I am all too fond of as I am now a part of it; a twin flame partnership. Remember when I mentioned being on a journey to self love? Well, along with learning to love yourself unconditionally, you learn how to give love selflessly. During my younger years (yes, 25 is still young) I looked for love in boys who didn't even know how to love themselves and girls who did not know how to be their own friend let alone anyone else's. After years and tears of pain despite always believing a counterpart for me was out there, I was unable to cry anymore. I was becoming accustomed to receiving less, that is when I knew it was time for a change.
I looked into different healing crystals that would be able to assist with the things I struggled with. I came across "ROSIE" my huge beautiful rose quartz. I wore it around my neck for days, meditating on love for self and others in an unconditional, no expectations required manner. A few weeks after the beginning of this process, I reconnected with a childhood friend who I recognized immediately as MY TWIN FLAME. As we began our journey, I noticed all of the many synchronized happenings. Dates, names, interests, numerology, random totems etc. Speaking of - my partner unfortunately lost his mom at a young age so things that normal girlfriends may get the opportunity to do - I felt I couldn't have so I could only imagine how he felt. One day he showed me a picture of his mom and I would have liked to lose my mind. A few days before reconnecting with him this woman was in a dream of mine. I knew that I was the spiritually mature twin, so I had no idea how I would explain it to him. Fortunately, it wasn't as difficult as I imagined it would have been. He did not doubt me as he also has certain intuitive abilities within him (why was I surprised? your twin flame is your mirror - literally) which couldn't have pleased me any more. I was able to share all of my hearts desires with him effortlessly, still do.
My birthday came not too long after the reconnect which is when I had the PERFECT idea for his day. DING - Vacay to Texas to see his twin (another piece of him) who he hadn't seen in 4 or 5 years - YIKES!!! It was supposed to be a surprise but I couldn't keep a secret from him, it felt wrong. WELL HERE WE ARE A YEAR LATER, in TEXAS visiting his twin and having the time of our lives! I may not have been able to meet his mom physically, but I appreciate her trusting me to do the job and the signs I have been receiving the whole time letting me know it is a job well done. Including all of the outdated programming done to my heart over the years from false loves and "fauxships" (Kianti` Ayshea` Original word) purging from my soul.
In EVERY way I have manifested everything I have from before I had my first book, up to now with my second book published June 2017 and another published for a client of mine in May 2017. The apartment I live in, the car I drive, the relationship and bond I am building with my soul's mirror. I can honestly say that I can see our and anyone involved future being extremely bright. Similar to the big CITRINE quartz in his grandfather's living room! Yea - it's that real !!!!
Ascending and Aligning
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